Six hours, three days...

In the last three days I have had approximately six hours of sleep. Why? Because apparently there is some serious psychological issues I need to be working through. At least that is what my brain says...I have been having nightmares. The kind that wake you, and when you awake you realize you've been crying. Yes the kind of nightmare that leaves you feeling insecure, unsafe and a bit like a failure. 
Everything in me is begging for a peaceful nights sleep, and yet I can't help but see the bright side in a dreary situation. I have been able to get in some much needed reading, everything has become increasingly funny, and I have lost 8 lbs. due to no appetite. On top of all those lovely perks, I have to say my days have been delightful. I had a wonderful weekend with friends, and was able to attend church for the first time in months! Things in my life are going very well, or so it seems at the moment. Which then begs the question, what on earth are my nightmares about?! Maybe there is no dark seeded issue needing to be worked out after all. Or maybe waking every night after only an hour or so of sleep IS how I  will work through these unknown issues. Still, I think a full nights rest would be a good idea tonight! Here's hoping...
Tomorrow is my friend Amber's 24th birthday! I would hate to be sleepy or worse, cranky when trying to help her celebrate 24 years of life's experiences :) She has been such a gem in my life, she deserves a wonderful carefree day of simple joys!! I would like to throw her a party, the only problem lies in I don't know who else she likes well enough to share her birthday with....I SHOULD KNOW these thongs as a best friend, and yet somehow every name that pops into my head just seems to me that they bug her...
It may not be a  surprise, but after talking to her I will have a suitable list of guests and we can plan a fun evening :)